Friday, February 24, 2006
Teachers. They carry out the most important job in the world. They either make, or break their students and their future. They can either boost or just murder their students' self confidence level. Parents' roles are just as important. They can make the child feel wanted, loved. But one accidental word, that is enough to make the child feel... insecure.
Back to teachers. Have you ever noticed, they seem to age really fast? Some are only in their 30s, some even in their late 20s, but most show signs of aging already. If they have been doing their work and not playing around, that is.
But one thing. I really hate the EOM. They are the ones who dish out this tiring curriculum. I guess they think it's gonna make us smarter, but... what's the point? We just rush rush rush, never stop to take our time to see the sunset. We never take time to relax. It's just rush, rush, rush, get everything done. Even if I die, at least I die with everything done. That's plain stupid. When you die, is anybody gonna be waiting for you, to see how many master's degrees you've got? If it's six and above, you go straight to heaven. If it's it's two to five, you just have to wait here for how long I want you to be here. If it's one, you just get to wait even longer. There's even the possibility that I may throw you into hell. Depends on what I like. If it's zero... then well too bad, kiddo.
Ok, so the numbers are a little exaggerated, I'll admit. But it's not impossible.
Get what I mean? Those people who spend their whole life slaving for a just one master's, they're forever rushing. They never take time to appreciate life. They're probably even too busy to notice what they're eating. When they walk, they probably don't know what colour the floor they're walking on is. I'm not saying that everybody should go round staring at the floor, but. Yeah.
So really. I don't see the point of this new curriculum. At all. Mlcf. Does she teach? She just tells us go back and do, then I give you answers. I cannot give you answers, because like that, you don't learn anything at all right, girls? But wait. Does she really teach...? Ok, she teaches a little. She does put at least some effort in her work. [I think.] But well. Don't judge a person when you don't really know how much effort and work she's put in.
Take this scenario for example: You're asked to play for this audition just one week beforehand. Others got the news more than a month ago. So you agree, cos really, you don't have a choice. So you sweat it out, you practise like hell, you really put in all the effort you've got. For yourself, partly, and for the school. And then, when you come out of the audition room, feeling lousy, because really, you know you have played better, and then you're thinking, why the heck didn't I do this or that? Why couldn't I concentrate just now? I played like shit just now! And THEN. Somebody comes along and tells you, you know, I really don't think that piece was suitable. Did you hear the others? All those amazing concertos, brilliant up-and-down the fingerboard playing, fast notes, impressive sounds, and what did you do? An EXERCISE PIECE?! Why couldn't you play something like that?!? If others can do it, so can you.
Obviously, you feel like slapping the shit out of the other person's face. He/she doesn't know what has been going on behind the scenes. Doesn't know how hard you practised. Doesn't know that you apparently you were MATURE enough to know the consequences. Thinks you're just a useless wimp who can't even choke up something good within a week. In the first case, I didn't know Bach composed technical exercises. Secondly, that idiot's not the one playing. It's YOU. He can only appreciate the work you've put in if what you play sounds great. Otherwise, no. So in other words, he can't really appreciate music in that sense. He needs impressive sound to be impressed. Well in a way, you do need impressive sound. But that later. He thinks you just wasted his time.
Hello, I am mary-anne. I am not mozart. I am not those amazing prodigies you read about in the newspaper, yes? Those who are performing internationally at just age 6. I am an ordinary person who needs to clock in, practise enough in order to come up with something.
And then he turns around and says you should have listened to teacher, and play a particular sonata. My dear, d'you know what's a sonata? It is not a solo. It needs a lot of co-ordination. A lot of practising together. Co-operation. Each plays an important part. You think both can do so in a week?
We are not geniuses. If we were, why we wouldn't be in singapore.
I'm just getting madder by the minute.
4:16 pm
