Tuesday, December 06, 2005
I'm sorry to say this, but... nothing worked. The bad news is, I don't know what can. This is like an obsession, it never leaves. It keeps bothering me, the damned thing. Why can't I just forget, like the way I forget how to do my maths? Why do I always have to remember every painful moment? It is just too frustrating. Why, why, why? You think I like to dig up the past, but the truth is I DON'T LIKE TO! It is just there! It does not leave! I am not one to dig up the past continually, and I don't care who does. The fact is, that. I. Do. Not. Dig. Up. The. Past. Fullstop. I am a totally helpless victim. I am stuck at the bottom of this pit. I want to get out, DUH. BUT DAMN IT, I CANNOT! Can't you see? Can't ANYBODY see?! It is just this dull ache. I blog about it because it makes it less worse. It does not, like what you say...make it worse. I have to let off steam somewhere. If not here, then where? Teachers huh? Not too bad an idea, but I don't want to get expelled. Not yet. No damn person understands.
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