Monday, December 05, 2005
Christmas is coming, yet I feel nothing of the christmas spirit. I don't feel like celebrating christmas, sadly. It is still there. It refuses to go away, no matter how much I heap on it. I bury it and I bury it, and it lies there, buried, but it is still there. I know I should never have buried it, but it is just too painful to remember, so I bury it. But burying does not work...
And I don't know what will.
One day, it might all become too much. What will happen then? I wouldn't like to know.
I know this is just a nightmare. I will wake up soon. I must! You have absolutely no idea what's happening. I look alright on the outside, but on the inside, I don't think I am quite the same...
Come back...
7:14 pm
